push through to back down

Spark a purpose in me, kill the girl who was afraid to live.
Replace her with the girl she wishes she could be
we’ve all been there, that place between pushing through and backing down
I scream at the top of my lungs in this city that illuminates everything so eloquently
I wanted to be eloquent for you, but all I could be was afraid
Afraid of you, us, us together
So I backed down and lost my focus now you’re a blur in the background of my sarcastic life
Now the city skyscrapers mock my small stature in this world and I realize I’m defenseless
we ran around backwards, forwards, sideways and any way to avoid our feelings.
we wanted to feel without the feelings
I’ll be waiting on the other side for you, because I know that behind that smile and collected look you have, you were always as scared as I was
pushing through alone vs backing down with me?
It’s always better together, I understand that now, and I’m not afraid.

Your perfect eyes are crying perfect tears for a perfection you won’t ever find
Spinning spears straight to hearts that hate. Everyone’s searching for love and only finding war.
Try looking less
and start feeling more

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we screamed at the moon by the lake to show us any trace that true love still existed
we were met with silence and our reflections