Kiss me hard or not at all.
Because I'm never going to miss you like this again

I can feel myself shaking with complete and total anger
mixed in with fear and frustration
I think that this is how people feel when they say they’re at the end of their ropes
constant headaches and arguing; all in the name of what? It can’t be love
my hair is unruly; my electronic devices are conspiring against me.
I should take this as a sign for what’s to come
but we know I’m too oblivious for that.
I can’t make up my mind on anything
Jumping in vs. holding back
it’s over vs. “give me one more chance”
black shoes vs. brown boots
I make everything a battle

We're stuttering, too busy
looking opposite ways
at the same place.
You make my knees fall to the ground
and I'm jealous of your bed.
I need words and more importantly
I need fingertips that convey a stronger point.

i'm almost alive

holding hands instead of grudges are easier to let go and then pick back up again. I’m glad we’re finally agreeing on something. You know none of this has been easy for me


I need you to try and save me.

I know I’m not the only girl you’ve ever had

These bottles keep piling up while I keep falling down, nothing can be better than stumbling around trying to hide from feelings. “I’m fine” I stammer out. IT’S ALL LIES.
We all know it.
We all just don’t know how to stop it
I replay events from my past, every time it gets worse
can’t we just go back to laying half naked in each others arms, we may have been inebriated but it still felt nice. Maybe you felt nothing?
I felt safe and comforted half asleep staring at your sleeping figure
pass me another bottle. Let me make another mistake
I’m attached at the hip with bad ideas and even worse regrets, but I wouldn’t change a thing
if it means I end up in your arms sometimes
JUST DROP IT.
I wish I could, its all so heavy this was supposed to mean so much more, or was I just wasting time (wishful) thinking
you know all this could go away if you just said SOMETHING, ANYTHING
even if it burns holes in me like the garbage can we lit on fire to stay warm while looking at stars
"you can’t see them properly, its all the city lights” we went inside, and left the garbage fire to burn out or spread
I wasn’t concerned either way

push through to back down

Spark a purpose in me, kill the girl who was afraid to live.
Replace her with the girl she wishes she could be
we’ve all been there, that place between pushing through and backing down
I scream at the top of my lungs in this city that illuminates everything so eloquently
I wanted to be eloquent for you, but all I could be was afraid
Afraid of you, us, us together
So I backed down and lost my focus now you’re a blur in the background of my sarcastic life
Now the city skyscrapers mock my small stature in this world and I realize I’m defenseless
we ran around backwards, forwards, sideways and any way to avoid our feelings.
we wanted to feel without the feelings
I’ll be waiting on the other side for you, because I know that behind that smile and collected look you have, you were always as scared as I was
pushing through alone vs backing down with me?
It’s always better together, I understand that now, and I’m not afraid.

Your perfect eyes are crying perfect tears for a perfection you won’t ever find
Spinning spears straight to hearts that hate. Everyone’s searching for love and only finding war.
Try looking less
and start feeling more

_____________________________

we screamed at the moon by the lake to show us any trace that true love still existed
we were met with silence and our reflections

"innocent and so naive"

I’m spinning dreams with threads of guilt and mistakes
And this sunlight filtering through my blinds gives this dark world some irony
From the tunnel vision to the cramped backseat, you’re all that I can see
You’ve brought the light in to my mind
like the sunlight dancing on my walls thought the blinds
you could be my sunlight, only if it didn’t sound so clichéd
I won’t say anything
I’ll just let the light dance off my walls and silently think of you as sunlight

i guess i'll see you around

the space between something and nothing is filled with me and you
old feelings are running away in the dark
the speed that our secrets are formed is half that of how fast they can destroy
the freedom wheels are turning counterclockwise
and headed on a long trip alone
this sweet air screams infidelity
don’t be fooled

full (half) circle

My feet up on the dashboard
you’re tapping the beat of a song on the steering wheel
our aimless love taking us on a midnight ride
our mix tape is filling the dark
Side A is full of our favourite memory songs, sunsets, and first kisses
headlights giving us small glimpses of what’s ahead
This is freedom
these four wheels moving beneath us
the bumps in the road are symbolic of you and I
I envy the innocent
I want highway signs to take me home
we’re spilling forever from our pores
but this could all be over tonight
the loss of this peaceful night is quickly forgotten as new light spreads across the horizon and onto the dashboard
it’s Neverland on repeat
I sing, write and live for somewhere I’ve never been
Side B is full of emotions I’ve never felt but wish I had
I make circles in dust
and laugh because I know that patch of dirt will never be the same now
because of me
I wish I could do that to a person
Even you’ll be the same when this ends

I screamed a good bye lullaby
my words flow under the stars and above your head
I’m caving in to my scars
and I’m jealous of your lingering scent
cigarettes and cologne;
never thought I’d find comfort in that smell

2 years and countless fights later; here we are
Our headlights piercing the darkness
Our heads still spinning the "happily ever after"

The nights are the worst
knowing you’re so far away
I catch myself wondering;
“Is he thinking of me?”

i spilt a jar of romance the other day
now we're in love

woke up to the world spinning.
"is this some sort of sick joke"
suddenly i'm desperate
"is she alright?"
don't steal my thunder

here's hoping for a bright tomrrow